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Much Joan. So Rivers. Wow.

Posted on 2014.04.06 at 15:13
I suppose I should resolve the story from last week, but it has a happy ending, and I'm hyper-aware that people have trouble conceiving, or are having a perfectly normal time conceiving but that itself is frustrating, or are having severe problems conceiving, though those people have probably self-selected themselves away from this blog years ago.

I thought, "The last time I miscarried, I didn't start spotting for three or four weeks." So I decided to make a doctor's appointment. I told the ultrasound tech, "I think I was pregnant for about a day, and then miscarried, and I just want to know what's going on."

She checked, and said, "Oh, you're very pregnant." By which she meant about two months. Far enough along to see the heartbeat. But I'd had a recent period! A full-fledged, unmistakable period. Apparently this is a thing that happens to people, not terribly uncommonly.  Periodic bleeding while pregnant. Who knew.

I am very happy! This is great! But unexpected; I'd been steeling myself for bad news.

I think this part is funny: before the ultrasound, the tech asked why I thought I miscarried, and I said, "I'd been having first trimester symptoms, but then they went away."
She said, "That's really early to be feeling symptoms."
I said, "Yes, but I've been paying close attention."   Ha ha.

Here is my secret delight: the symmetry. Oh my god, the symmetry. I am beside myself with glee. Hawaii was born in April 2009, Hokey Pokey was November, 2010. Ace was April 2013. This one will be November 2014.  When I was pregnant with Ace, it felt like I was reliving my pregnancy with Hawaii. And now I get to re-live my pregnancy with Hokey Pokey. This is so fucking satisfying.

(How much do I like symmetry? One big reason that I hate getting massages is that inevitably the masseuse does not touch you with perfect symmetry, and the phantom spot - the mirror image of wherever they rubbed on one side but failed to perfectly duplicate on the other - that spot starts driving me crazy, to distraction. I start keeping track of all the ways the massage fails to be perfectly symmetric. It's not very relaxing.)(The other reason is that I don't like being touched.)(Aren't I less fun than a barrel of monkeys.)

Anyway: four kids, with internal patterns to their births. Wow. So symmetric. Much pattern. Very design.

While we're on the subject of babies: Ace, good lord. What a delight. She just wants you to sit on the floor with her, and she is so, so happy as she crawls in and out of your lap, pulls up on your shoulder, bounces, babbles. Just so happy until you try to get up and get something done.

(I meant to take a photo of Ace, but then she went down for a nap, so instead you get mesquite trees.)

I've been in Laredo for a conference, where it was 101° at first. The drive to Laredo was full of spring green low mesquite trees; very monotonous. (Such repetition. Wow.)

I did not explore the city. I was either at our hotel or the university. I might have enjoyed exploring, but it was not convenient and I'm so very tired, and Joan Rivers was on two different channels on cable TV. Simultaneously!

For the record: I like asymmetry just fine. What I can't stand is failed symmetry. If you're attempting a pattern, do it right for god's sake.


Kelly Jennings
Kelly Jennings at 2014-04-06 16:39 (UTC) (Link)


Congratulations! That's excellent news.
heebie_geebie at 2014-04-12 19:40 (UTC) (Link)

Re: Yay!

Thank you! I'm super stoked.
lolliejean at 2014-04-06 17:29 (UTC) (Link)
Woohoo! New Geebie on the way! I like the symmetry of the birth dates too.
heebie_geebie at 2014-04-12 19:40 (UTC) (Link)
Woohoo is right! I could not be more pleased.
panisdead at 2014-04-06 22:13 (UTC) (Link)
Oh, congratulations!!
heebie_geebie at 2014-04-12 19:40 (UTC) (Link)
Thanks! I'm pretty stoked!
(Anonymous) at 2014-04-07 01:40 (UTC) (Link)


Congratulations! So cool.

md 20/400
heebie_geebie at 2014-04-12 19:40 (UTC) (Link)

Re: Wowsers!

Thanks, md! I'm pretty pleased.
"my work is loving the world"
sun_set_bravely at 2014-04-07 02:21 (UTC) (Link)
Wow! That is one incredibly satisfying pattern. Congratulations on the impending new adorable human!
heebie_geebie at 2014-04-12 19:41 (UTC) (Link)
Thanks! I am super happy, both with the pattern and the plain fact.
violetsnvalium at 2014-04-07 12:39 (UTC) (Link)
Congratulations! Do you want it to be a boy to keep up the symmetry? Also it would be quite funny/infuriating if the new baby popped out about a month early and messed it all up. Then when it grew up and became a moody adolescent it could be all "from my birth I never followed your rules, I'm a free spirit" etc.
heebie_geebie at 2014-04-12 19:43 (UTC) (Link)
Part of me feels disloyal rooting for a boy, should it turn out to be a girl, but I can't fail to admit that the pattern would be incredibly satisfying.

That would be kind of hilarious if this one was early. I've been lulled into a false sense of security by three late pregnancies.
rebeccastob at 2014-04-08 05:02 (UTC) (Link)
yay! congratulations! that is pretty nice spacing - i am rooting for a boy for the symmetry of it.
heebie_geebie at 2014-04-12 19:43 (UTC) (Link)
Thanks! I find the symmetry of the boy incredibly satisfying, but I feel slightly disloyal saying so, should it be a girl.
puzzlement at 2014-04-28 06:13 (UTC) (Link)
Belated congrats!

I've seen threatened miscarriages on parenting boards (and had one too, my first pregnancy) enough that I was thinking "heebie, you can't be sure you're miscarrying yet…" but of course I couldn't say that I was thinking that until it turned out I was right.

I like the twist with the dates too.
puzzlement at 2014-04-28 06:18 (UTC) (Link)
Also, re symmetry, we don't plan to have more children in any case, but the symmetry speaks to me as well. One boy, one girl. Both born in January. A third would just not FIT THE PATTERN dammit. (Especially since I'd never chance a December due date again. It's so hard to get a care provider who will have a good chance of attending the delivery.)

My parents-in-law actually did this: they have two children, a nice neat four years (and a day) apart, girl and boy, born Feb. Then they went and wrecked it all with another girl, born three and a half years later in November. (Hello to my in-laws if you find this somehow: I'm kidding. It's all good.)
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